A Cup of Philtre

That’s LIFE for you.

PrisCJN — Tue, 29 Nov 2011 01:51:05 +0000

Nothing is without effort. If you want it, Fight for it! til the very end! til it breaks every bone and rupture every cell in your body ( err…ok, a little fatal :/ )…or at least show that what you want, is making you put in such great efforts.

Don’t go meddling into things which you don’t intend to keep. TYVM.

well… (: cheers to endings and new beginnings!

exams are over! now the semester will see its end of the road after 3 weeks of clinicals and 2 weeks of holiday. i simply can’t wait for the holiday to arrive! XBOX WHOLE DAY LONG!! lol and shall do some lifestyle changes. (: running, swimming, gyming, GAMING, haha…! (: #LookingForward!

onwards to greater things! YEAH! <3

today;

baking cookies at ECLY’s
Dinner at Sunset Grill

Challenges of the Day:

Drive to Tampines Mall
Drive to Sunset Grill
Eat buffalo wings of intense spicy-ness! (i’m gonna spit fire for sure :/)
Drive home from Sunset Grill

toodles~!

xoxo,
pris

finding nemo once again.

PrisCJN — Mon, 14 Nov 2011 17:50:33 +0000

today is a good good day (:

started off with a swim with semut. haha! we actually made a pact to swim like once every week since the start of this semester but…today was the 2nd time, and the semester’s ending in a few weeks’ time. well, life happens right? haha! but really glad today’s weather was good that allowed us to swim! (:

had an awesome chat with her too. i’m always learning new things from our conversations and she always evoke new thoughts. anyways, here’s something she shared with me which i thought was really like, a “life lesson”. shall share with whoever’s reading this. (:

Relationships start off with both parties being a piece of paper. Nice, neat, fresh (: when you get together, you two (the 2 pieces of paper) are stapled together. but when you break up, the staple is removed; the holes remained – part of you is gone. But when there’s coitus involved in the r/s, coitus is like a glue, gluing both the papers together. so when you break up, the papers have to be torn apart. Guess what happens? Yes, there’s gonna be a big hole and tons of damages on the papers. again, part of you is gone; but this time, a really big part. So the more relationships you’ve been in, the lesser of you is left. It’s like, you’re giving away your heart to so many people (who may not be worth it). when it really comes to the right one, you’re not entirely whole.

moral of the story…..it’s not to say BE SINGLE UNTIL THE ONE COMES. wth knows who’s “THE ONE” right? you could think that he/she is the one but….yea, you may be wrong. so it kinda says……don’t jump into relationships just because you need an attachment. you may end up getting yourself hurt over n over again. think and ponder over wisely and really…think. don’t rush into things… (: as the saying goes, “good things are worth waiting for”.

and most of all, trust God. He knows. (:

yup! cool analogy right? haha.

so, after swimming we ate at Utown’s Bruce’s cafe. wanted to try the new Korean place but it was super packed. ): but good lunch. we both had bamboo rice but hers was nicer…had chicken cutlet besides the rice; same price. ugh. ): owells. lol she gave me a piece of chicken though (: YUMS! ohyah, i had yang chou bamboo rice. haha it’s mainly fried rice in bamboo =.= yes, ikr. haha but nice lah (:

so after lunch, semut went home, i went back to SB to study (that was the plan) with ecly, oml and corn cheese. LOL we ended up chatting (: ohwells, unproductive day. There’s still time…right? HAHA

Did dinner with F. (: at some Jap restaurant in j8. not bad the food (: we talked a whole bunch though. really awesome to be catching up. i love catching up! then he wanted to have crepes? but it was already 9pm…so the crepes place was closed. so sad… ): ohwells. so we headed to Macs as WW gave me vouchers for free sundaes and apple pie. so we redeemed that and ate the sundaes. was waiting for his bus to arrive and eating the sundaes when i said randomly “i wanted to catch a movie.” and he said, “you wanna watch movie? okay. let’s go.” WAH! (: haha! yay! so we caught “Tower Heist” (: it was ok-ok only eh. prolly our expectations were too high as the movie starred Ben Stiller and Eddie Murphy. hmm…. but ok uh, had a few good laughs here n there (:

so, good good day and good good night. really enjoyed spending time with my beloveds. (: awesome max! haha

well, YN is heading off for a road trip again. ): can’t skype with her for the next 10 days. gonna miss her much! here wishing her a safe trip! <3

alrights. i shall go read “One Day” now. thanks semut for sending me the PDF file. save $$$ (: yes, im a poor student. >< haha

toodles~!
xoxo.

Flee, Follow, Fight!

PrisCJN — Sun, 13 Nov 2011 04:57:15 +0000

Yesterday, went to Hope Church as was invited by J many times. I kept pushing her invitations back cos I know mum and dad aren’t very approving as they are of a different belief. And partly cos I was a little lazy as well. =/ But that aside, when yesterday came, I really had this urge to persuade mum to let me go for the service. Like, there was something there that was telling me I should really go.

Thankfully, I managed to convinced mum. Thus, I went. And I have not regretted a single bit. (Though there was a few initial awkward moments cos i know no one there, except for J.)

The people there were REALLY NICE! (: and I mean, GENUINELY NICE. can really feel that they are sincerely…NICE! (: i mean, true nice-ness VS fake nice-ness; sure can tell one. HAHA… so i felt really good and welcomed being there. And I realised, it was the Uni Service. which is pretty good cos it’s kinda like, people understand what you are going through in school as well? Uni life is tough…and being able to be in the house of God with Uni students is like…really encouraging.

and the sermon was awesome! like, it really spoke to me! i guess you could say, God knows our every fear and difficulty. that prolly explained the “urge” and “drive” i was experiencing that made me really wanna go ystd. (:

just something I would like to share which I thought really hit right at home.

1 Timothy 6:11
“Flee from all this”
FLEE is usually associated with cowardice and fear, but in this context, “flee” should be like, fleeing as a mean to Victory and the only wise thing to do as there is no better way.

Flee from godless teachings (v3-5)
Flee from the love of money (v9-10)
Flee from evil desires (2 Timothy 2:22)
Flee from sexual immorality (1 Corinthians 6:18)(Genesis 39:10-12)
Flee from Idolatry (1 Corinthians 10:14)

What caved in was “Flee from Idolatry”. Idols, not so much in its literal sense like celebrities and all but could also be like a crush/gf/bf/spouse…it’s someone or something that you fixate upon and your whole world and all the decisions you make seem to be revolving around them. During this period, it kinda felt like that. what happened between me and S is like consuming me from the inside. I can say like 90% of the things i do everyday kinda had him in mind. And now I know, it shouldn’t be this way. (: i must flee from idolatry. “In life, we also tend to give in a little, a little and a little. Then we give a little more, a little more, a little more. By the time we realise, we are stuck, or hooked. And although it’s going to be really difficult; we need to flee.”

The next statement is something I wouldn’t have thought about before but hearing it, really makes a whole lot of sense.

“If you are moving away from something, naturally, you are moving towards something else.” so true right?? (:

Thus, “fleeing” may not necessary be the work of a coward. It is towards greater things (:

The next thing was about “FIGHT”. we must keep in mind and know what we want to fight for. and PERSEVERE on.
FIGHT with PERSEVERANCE (James 1:2-4)

Tough times will not last; and going through it will only mature you.

Fight on with the purpose and God in mind. Because there is a reason why God put us through these challenges.

He wants us to learn how to fight! ((:

another interesting thing that I’ve learnt was that, “Fight” in Greek literally meant “Agony”. Fighting is a very agonizing thing to be doing. It’s never gonna be easy, but we MUST “piah” to the very end and never give up. (: yup. “fight the good fight”.

to end this post, i just wanna say thank you to J who kept fighting on, persevering in her many texts and kept inviting me to the service. (: and the ability God has given me to persuade my mum to let me go, i know God has soften her heart at that point which led her to make such a sound decision. (: and most of all, I’m really thankful to God who has not forsaken me after all this while.

I was a lost sheep, but God has never forgotten about me. (: His love is the greatest of all. He never fails.

okayyys (: long post. hope you guys learnt some things too! <3

toodles~!

xoxo.

you’re insane.

PrisCJN — Thu, 10 Nov 2011 20:36:45 +0000

Truthfully, I’ve never met a more disturbed person than you. The things you do these days make me go “Seriously?”, and it wasn’t in the nicest tone nor was it just once each time, trust me.

Sorry mister, the more shit and fcuked up stuff you do, the more it’s annoying me (like, duh~). Good thing though, it makes this heartache a little more sufferable at each turn of your insanity and stupidity.

You said you hope we could still be really good friends? I didn’t know the definition of “Really Good Friends” meant a truckload of lies, betrayals and…oh, i don’t know…MORE LIES?! your acts should come to a close already, like seriously. I present to you a Golden Horse Award lah uh. (curtain calls please)

And today, you’ve got the cheek to text me to get me to send you your resume? I literally LOL-ed. Hello…….your resume wasn’t even done by yourself! Remember who was the one who actually helped you do it? yes, yours truly. of course you remember, that was why you asked me for it. gahh! & I foolishly sent it to you. ohgosh. what was I thinking?!

After sending then I thought of an awesome comeback (like thanks Brain, you could have worked a little faster than Heart. not blaming you though. this is just a phase that shit like this happens). Should have said I’ve deleted it and you could jolly well go ask your minah to help you write one out. Pathetic or what. Yes, I’m sounding like a jealous bitch, but can you blame me? After what you’ve done? tsk. whatever. As quoted from OML, she said “You’re a bigger person than this!” yea baby! sometimes I think I seem too nice that you can, at all times and anytime, take advantage of. gahh! Loser much. and since i’m so nice, i wish you the best in your life. (no, seriously… i do wish you the best. not trying to be sarcastic at all.)

It’s alright. I’m better off without you anyways. No more of your mind games, playing me and dragging me around like a rag doll.

Ohwells. On a happier note, 7 days to Batam with hubby! (: Hopefully the Sun is awesome there. Really in need of a tan! both of us! TURI BEACH! <3

RAINBOW CUPCAKES BAKING SESSION TOMORROW with ECLY, OML and LA! <3 so excited! (((:

and kuay chap dinner date with F and ZH! (((: hope F brings Million along too! miss that lil guy!

alrights, time to hit the sack.

toodles~!

-a little bit stronger each day-

equation.

PrisCJN — Tue, 01 Nov 2011 06:34:28 +0000

afterall, it’s 2 years and 5 months worth of love, joy, tears, sunshine, rain, patience, effort, hugs, kisses, and tons of smiles and laughter.

probably it’s gonna take the same amount of time to get over it all.

Love is like a science experiment (it’s all about ‘chemistry’, isn’t it?). You may not get the result you want at the first try (or 2nd, or a few tries after).

So change the variable. Persevere on…ultimately, you will get what you want.

i love my awesome mind for thinking of that up (: i got swag! lol

it’s always the girls.

PrisCJN — Tue, 01 Nov 2011 06:27:01 +0000

just some random thoughts…

why is it always the girls that hurt the most when a relationship fails? is it really true that we are made of 70% fluids that’s why we are so fragile and emotional? is it wrong to be loving someone so true and deep? why are girls so emotional? why do we always fall so deep that we seem to not be able to pick ourselves up? so many love songs that speak of break-ups and loss, are sang by girls. why don’t the guys get to feel the kind of pain and hurt we go through? isn’t childbirth already a damn painful obstacle for us? why still put us through all these shitty emotional mess? argh.

whatever it is. what doesn’t kill us, would only make us stronger. and true to its core – time will heal all wounds. (but scars remain)

ohwells. done with this random rant. ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD! (: maybe a lil emo now due to listening to emo songs? haha!

CAN’T WAIT TO MEET LING! in like…less than 4 hours! (: gonna sing our hearts out! whoooo~! <3

toodles~!

xx,
pris

parts.

PrisCJN — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 15:58:59 +0000

last night’s halloween gotten off a not-so-good start. couldnt get into phuture cos full alr. and we queued for freakin 4 hours!! )): haiz… owells. headed down to PLAY. pretty fun! good music, as usual. (: but…abit sianz cos it brought back memories. especially of the latest one when we went to play, i was in heels, he came to pick me up and brought slippers for me! like so sweet right…? haiz…. )): so was kinda emo. =/ to add to my misery, cute guys went around kissing…other guys. fml.

well. overall, i had great fun with my friends! (: but this year my costume like kinda failed. grrr….next year will be better! (:

today! haha. went on a….date? lol. watched 23:59 and had dinner with ks. he’s a really nice guy. (: he paid for movie n dinner! and ice cream! haha. that’s what a guy should do right? lol. thank God sushi tei was like long Q! he suggested eating there. omg…though he’s gonna pay but…im not that mean.. haha (: first date afterall. LOL (:

but going on this date…i had so many moments where i wish i was out with S instead. i guess, part of me still can’t really let go. i know i shouldn’t feel this way. afterall, he did do some really bad stuff that hurt me so bad.. ): haiz……but seriously, 2 years 5 months worth of effort n patience n feelings n love n so many things…it’s not all gonna go away that fast… >< haiz. i hate that i love him. i feel like a fool. if he can be so happy with the other her, why am i still thinking about him?! i did no wrong. not at all. yah! I SHOULD BE THE HAPPY ONE! (((((((: whoo! yupp!!

to end this post, i wanna make a declaration.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!! <3

love it when they are always there for me. regardless of my whines and stuff. they are the ones i truly love and this time, “forever” is really FOREVER!! whoo! our friendship-love will last for eternity! haha thank God for them. (:

well now, gotta really try to get some work done. if not i’d be so screwed.

toodles~!

vampire.

PrisCJN — Fri, 28 Oct 2011 17:25:12 +0000

looks like i’m blogging more often now! haha! shall not neglect my blog ever again! (try)

well, today… met up with xav for dinner at HV’s breko’s cafe. and we like-mindedly ordered the same food! haha friends for too long already lah…. lol (: but nice! chargrilled salmon! yums right? hee

maro joined us awhile later and we went to arab street in search of costumes..! for what? HALLOWEEN!!

but disappointed. ): couldn’t find anything worthy there. and they were like friggin expensive. ): and stupid arab street, every corner, no…not just corner…every single place is like….SHEESHA! wtf. shee your lives away lah! eew max! one session = 15 packs of ciggs. just die earlier lor you people. tsk. don’t treasure your life. waste your mother’s effort in giving birth to you and raising you. haiz… owells!

anyhows, we went to bugis street after that…was thinking of getting costumes there…see what we can find. and lo and behold! we (me and maro) got our costumes! she’s a sexy devil, in red laced corset-dress…me, blue corset top with tutu layered skirt – a vampire. lol (: skyped yina to show her and she said it’s really NICE!!!!!! WHOO!! sexy!! haha! LOL sexy lil vamp. HAHA! showed my sis…and she said…”jie, i didnt know you were so flat!” wts. k thanks. dont have to rub it in ma… )): “boobs vs 45kg”….i chose 45kg (not that i achieved that, YET)…

lol… owells…. shall try to squeeze every ounce of boobs tissue/cells/atoms/electrons i have and make them look as big as they can be. LOL

hmmm….tireddd…..shall turn in soon! tummy aching also ): have been eating too much these days. tsk. hope my corset doesn’t rip apart/burst open! ><

alrights, await for pictures people! im so sexcited!

toodles~!

friends.

PrisCJN — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 17:00:38 +0000

it’s a cold, cold day today. rained on and off, and heavily. and best part was, all my jackets were in the washing ): when i left house, it was still pretty sunny at my place, but who knew……. KR was like, dark…and wet… and…i was wearing shorts and spags. like, so awesome right? freezing ttm! ): not good. lol

hmm…been eating alot these days. feel so fat now. ): guess it’s PMS. grrrr… make me munch munch non-stop. owells.

so…”friends”; so as the title speaks, i’m gonna talk a lil about my friends (:

THEY ARE SO FREAKING AWESOME!

need i say more? lol (:

really glad to know i always have them. i feel really blessed. and it was FRIENDS who got me through this phase, this period of time. really appreciative of them. (: TREASURE! <3

and also, nette said she’s proud of me. (: so did yina and many many others! dad too! im proud of myself too! WAHAHAHA! i feel so awesome as well! lol

and tomorrow would be awesome too! everyday’s awesome! gonna be meeting xav n maro for dinner at HV + halloween costume shopping at arab street after! (: RY wants me to dress up as that girl in the Doraemon cartoon. which reminds me! gotta go find out how she looks like. lol he’s gonna be that da xiong! so nerdy. lol! wonder who’s doraemon! or is he gonna buy a stuffed one? HAHA! gosh! CANT WAIT FOR SATURDAY! whooooo~!!

assignments. ): it’s always at the back of my mind. so sianx… damn lame. hate doing assignments. and what’s worse is…it’s never ending! one after another!! so draining….and tiring….and it’s sucking up all my $$ too! mugging @ starbucks. really awesome place, but…it’s so sinful……): lol

the only good thing that came out from all these assignments – closer friendships forged!! (((((: ecly, oml, corncheese!

yay for FRIENDS!!! <3

gonna bring out this bible verse again (not sure if i’ve posted on WP yet but…here it is!)

“He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm.” – Proverbs 13:20

yupp (: loving this verse! so true to its core!

well now…gonna hit the sack!

NIGHTS WORLD! <3

toodles~!

ohyes! almost forgot! OML made cupcakes! yes! the rainbow coloured ones! SO FRIGGIN AWESOME! (: yums!

rainbow cupcake! <3

xoxo!

you’re missing out.

PrisCJN — Wed, 26 Oct 2011 07:35:10 +0000

SOOOOO……… (:

woke up later than usual today! thought i wouldn’t be able to fall asleep as me and ling watched PA3 ystd! guess it didnt scare me as much as i thought it would. lalala~ (: lol good good. either that, or i was really tired. HAHA

well, today is the festival of lights! HAPPY DEEPAVALI! thought of a reason why it’s called “festival of lights” but…sounds kinda racist so i shan’t say it out loud (or type it out, in this sense). (: don’t get the wrong impression, i love deepavali (: and i….have nothing against people who celebrates it (: i have indian friends too! <3 awesome people!

ok, ’nuff about that. went to grandma’s place today. pretty sad that the shop is now gone…became pizzahut. -.- but ok lah, at least we still have a small one next to it and another one at…thomson area? lol (: but i prefer the old signboard better. the new one like…….eew. ): old signboard looks more….classic. authentic. memories. grandpa….): i miss my grandpa… hmm…well, but he’s at a much better place now! yay!

3rd aunt was there too today (: she passed me a bag and in it, contained a blanket. she made it herself (: but as she passed it to me…she said this “i’ve made another blanket! since i’ve already made so many for you, maybe you can pass this to your boyfriend (:” wts. i had to smile and say “oh. no more already.” awkward moment…!! she didnt know how to react…LOL so she was like “oh. no more? hmm…….” and that about sums it up. haha! of cos, i said “THANK YOU!! i’ll use it! ” hahaha (: one can never have too many blankets right??? and somemore, handmade one leh (: FEEL THE LOVE PEOPLE!! envious much? haha! (too bad, he missed out.)

lovely day i had with LING ystd (: all dressed up and ready to turn heads til necks break! LOL jkjk (: but was feeling ultra blair waldorf ystd! strutting in nude heels, cute dress and immerse in Chanel No.5 ! (:

Bernadette Shift Dress in Mustard by TRACYEINNY; nude heels by TENDYZONE

the only thing missing was… CHUCK BASS! haha! well, let’s put it as ystd’s outing was an episode where SERENA hangs out with BLAIR (: lol girls’ only! <3

happy happy! talking about GG, gonna see if funsion has uploaded ep5 alr! hee (:

so toodles~!

xoxo.