last night’s halloween gotten off a not-so-good start. couldnt get into phuture cos full alr. and we queued for freakin 4 hours!! )): haiz… owells. headed down to PLAY. pretty fun! good music, as usual. (: but…abit sianz cos it brought back memories. especially of the latest one when we went to play, i was in heels, he came to pick me up and brought slippers for me! like so sweet right…? haiz…. )): so was kinda emo. =/ to add to my misery, cute guys went around kissing…other guys. fml.
well. overall, i had great fun with my friends! (: but this year my costume like kinda failed. grrr….next year will be better! (:
today! haha. went on a….date? lol. watched 23:59 and had dinner with ks. he’s a really nice guy. (: he paid for movie n dinner! and ice cream! haha. that’s what a guy should do right? lol. thank God sushi tei was like long Q! he suggested eating there. omg…though he’s gonna pay but…im not that mean.. haha (: first date afterall. LOL (:
but going on this date…i had so many moments where i wish i was out with S instead. i guess, part of me still can’t really let go. i know i shouldn’t feel this way. afterall, he did do some really bad stuff that hurt me so bad.. ): haiz……but seriously, 2 years 5 months worth of effort n patience n feelings n love n so many things…it’s not all gonna go away that fast… >< haiz. i hate that i love him. i feel like a fool. if he can be so happy with the other her, why am i still thinking about him?! i did no wrong. not at all. yah! I SHOULD BE THE HAPPY ONE! (((((((: whoo! yupp!! 
to end this post, i wanna make a declaration.
I LOVE MY FRIENDS!! <3
love it when they are always there for me. regardless of my whines and stuff. they are the ones i truly love and this time, “forever” is really FOREVER!! whoo! our friendship-love will last for eternity! haha thank God for them. (:
well now, gotta really try to get some work done. if not i’d be so screwed.
toodles~!
PrisCJN
