karma’s a dead bitch.

i’m glad life’s looking good for you.
you’re happy. it’s all that matters. (:

 

well then,

xoxo,
pris

rage.

Dear Assignments, just a meme to let you know how i feel about you.

Sincerely,

FFFFUUUUUUU~

and, yes (: this meme was drawn by me! pretty awesome right?? HAHA! had so much fun drawing MEMEs with ECLY her idea. cos there was this “Save the Earth” campaign going on at Utown’s starbucks (: used (n rinsed clean) paper cups, decorate them, and hang them up to beautify the bistro! pretty neat huh! ((:

our MEMEs (:

we are just obsessed with 9gag! then again, who isn’t?! 9gaggers UNITE! lol. ohgosh. i sounded damn geeky typing that out :/

either ways, it’s time to be a geek. gotta chiong assignments. target to finish by this friday. lol (“U MAD BRO?” meme comes to mind.) haha! but yea…gotta really try to finish by friday. prolly having dinner with C. it’s been awhile since i’ve seen him. last december? hmm… well, last dinner before he flies off… til next summer break. (:

another reason to finish by friday: ECLY is saying if we really finish by Friday…

Saturday we can go loklok!!

WAHAHAHA! so, that’s a really big motivation!! ((:

alrights! ’nuff of blogging (: im just doing everything but my assignment. tsk. haha (:

toodles~! <3

 

xoxo,
pris

 

p.s. poor Chuck. looks like it’s Dair (Dan and Blair) now. sigh.

lost

I just got home (650am) despite leaving school at 4+am. was doing 3115 assignment (: 75% done!

ok, back to topic. left school at 4+am, sent ECLY, SJ & OML home. holland v, choa chu kang and little India. by the time I drop oml home, it was like…520am? yea. supposed to be a simple route home where I take the road to KKH then go home from there. but….I got so freaking lost! I ended up touring half of Singapore! I was at kallang, newton, geylang, boon keng, upp paya lebar, Bartley, sims ave, king crowns road(?), KPE, PIE, CTE. oh gosh.

i tell you, I was so freaked out! ))))): I almost broke down. and the stupid iPad, make me so confused! it was lagging so I kept missing my turns and all. I really wanted to cry. ):

anyhows, I managed to calmmyself down and decided to take a chance and just anyhow roam about n follow the road signs. thank God I’m home! ((: never felt so glad to come home! (: phew.

what an adventure! lol (:

well, shall hit the sack now. drained. haha!

toodles~!

 

 

 

in the midst of my desperation, all I could think of was you. wish you were here to calm me down and keep me safe.

i love…

i love driving!

especially to new places and far away places!

like just now, me and yina went for supper at Bedok! Simpang Bedok! didnt expect it to be so crowded at almost close to midnight! (: looks like the forum didnt cheat us. it was really a supper place! and the food is pretty awesome! sedap!

I must say, yina is a lousy GPS. omygosh!!! LOL the only upside to this, i realise i aint that bad! she’s a bigger no-sense-of-direction person than i am! WAHAHAHA! and she cant freaking read the map -.- lol but it was great fun getting lost and finding our way! (((:

well, so full now. dont feel like sleeping yet. if i did, sure get nightmare ): so better not risk it. shall 9gag til i KO!

meeting her at 8am to swim! gosh! hope i can wake up guess i’d better go sleep soon. no nightmares please…. TYVM.

 

toodles~! (:

 

xoxo,

pris(:

woah!

what a shocker. ):

what appeared to be a happy family and loving couple, had so many secrets behind closed doors. i deeply feel for her. my friend. and her baby. the guy’s shit. such a douchebag! how can he lay hands on his own wife?! seriously?! dafuq?! given your “qualities”, you should be really thankful she chose you, married you, and even gave birth to a beautiful baby girl for you! tsk. call yourself a man?? wtf.

well, that aside… saw that she had a friend whose facebook name was….

“P-riscillacjn JsMomma“. i was rather intrigued!  so i went to check out her profile. and to my astonishment, she has 2 sons, and one of them is named Jayden. seriously? coincidental much??? already her fb name is like…my name n initials… “priscilla cjn” and i’ve always wanted to name my son “Jayden”! haha. looks like all priscilla cjn wants their son to be named Jayden huh (:

then thinking about Jayden…brings back memories. Jayden. Bang Wai. lol. (:

anyways, going for a run now!

toodles~! (:

-assignments are so sickening!-

a thousand years, a thousand more.

it’s so hard to fight off the yearnings… but I have to.

and not being able to control what / who not to dream of, is not making things any easier.

waking up feeling hurt and broken, incomplete.

 

never do a day go by that I won’t think of you.

 

 

 

 

my only wish right now…

that you’ve found your true happiness,

and that when she’s back, you two will reunite with things even better than before.

cos I wish you will never get to feel how I felt…..

this killer heartache.

 

 

 

now I believe when they say “one can die from a broken heart.”

That’s LIFE for you.

Nothing is without effort. If you want it, Fight for it! til the very end! til it breaks every bone and rupture every cell in your body ( err…ok, a little fatal :/ )…or at least show that what you want, is making you put in such great efforts.

Don’t go meddling into things which you don’t intend to keep. TYVM.

 

well… (: cheers to endings and new beginnings!

exams are over! now the semester will see its end of the road after 3 weeks of clinicals and 2 weeks of holiday. i simply can’t wait for the holiday to arrive! XBOX WHOLE DAY LONG!! lol and shall do some lifestyle changes. (: running, swimming, gyming, GAMING, haha…! (: #LookingForward!

 

onwards to greater things! YEAH! <3

today;

• baking cookies at ECLY’s
• Dinner at Sunset Grill

Challenges of the Day:

• Drive to Tampines Mall
• Drive to Sunset Grill
• Eat buffalo wings of intense spicy-ness! (i’m gonna spit fire for sure :/)
• Drive home from Sunset Grill
• 

toodles~!

xoxo,
pris

finding nemo once again.

today is a good good day (:

started off with a swim with semut. haha! we actually made a pact to swim like once every week since the start of this semester but…today was the 2nd time, and the semester’s ending in a few weeks’ time. well, life happens right? haha! but really glad today’s weather was good that allowed us to swim! (:

had an awesome chat with her too. i’m always learning new things from our conversations and she always evoke new thoughts. anyways, here’s something she shared with me which i thought was really like, a “life lesson”. shall share with whoever’s reading this. (:

Relationships start off with both parties being a piece of paper. Nice, neat, fresh (: when you get together, you two (the 2 pieces of paper) are stapled together. but when you break up, the staple is removed; the holes remained – part of you is gone. But when there’s coitus involved in the r/s, coitus is like a glue, gluing both the papers together. so when you break up, the papers have to be torn apart. Guess what happens? Yes, there’s gonna be a big hole and tons of damages on the papers. again, part of you is gone; but this time, a really big part. So the more relationships you’ve been in, the lesser of you is left. It’s like, you’re giving away your heart to so many people (who may not be worth it). when it really comes to the right one, you’re not entirely whole.

moral of the story…..it’s not to say BE SINGLE UNTIL THE ONE COMES. wth knows who’s “THE ONE” right? you could think that he/she is the one but….yea, you may be wrong. so it kinda says……don’t jump into relationships just because you need an attachment. you may end up getting yourself hurt over n over again. think and ponder over wisely and really…think. don’t rush into things… (: as the saying goes, “good things are worth waiting for”.

and most of all, trust God. He knows. (:

yup! cool analogy right? haha.

so, after swimming we ate at Utown’s Bruce’s cafe. wanted to try the new Korean place but it was super packed. ): but good lunch. we both had bamboo rice but hers was nicer…had chicken cutlet besides the rice; same price. ugh. ): owells. lol she gave me a piece of chicken though (: YUMS! ohyah, i had yang chou bamboo rice. haha it’s mainly fried rice in bamboo =.= yes, ikr. haha but nice lah (:

so after lunch, semut went home, i went back to SB to study (that was the plan) with ecly, oml and corn cheese. LOL we ended up chatting (: ohwells, unproductive day. There’s still time…right? HAHA

Did dinner with F. (: at some Jap restaurant in j8. not bad the food (: we talked a whole bunch though. really awesome to be catching up. i love catching up! then he wanted to have crepes? but it was already 9pm…so the crepes place was closed. so sad… ): ohwells. so we headed to Macs as WW gave me vouchers for free sundaes and apple pie. so we redeemed that and ate the sundaes. was waiting for his bus to arrive and eating the sundaes when i said randomly “i wanted to catch a movie.” and he said, “you wanna watch movie? okay. let’s go.” WAH! (: haha! yay! so we caught “Tower Heist” (: it was ok-ok only eh. prolly our expectations were too high as the movie starred Ben Stiller and Eddie Murphy. hmm…. but ok uh, had a few good laughs here n there (:

so, good good day and good good night. really enjoyed spending time with my beloveds. (: awesome max! haha

well, YN is heading off for a road trip again. ): can’t skype with her for the next 10 days. gonna miss her much! here wishing her a safe trip! <3

alrights. i shall go read “One Day” now. thanks semut for sending me the PDF file. save $$$ (: yes, im a poor student. >< haha

 

toodles~!
xoxo.

Flee, Follow, Fight!

Yesterday, went to Hope Church as was invited by J many times. I kept pushing her invitations back cos I know mum and dad aren’t very approving as they are of a different belief. And partly cos I was a little lazy as well. =/ But that aside, when yesterday came, I really had this urge to persuade mum to let me go for the service. Like, there was something there that was telling me I should really go.

Thankfully, I managed to convinced mum. Thus, I went. And I have not regretted a single bit. (Though there was a few initial awkward moments cos i know no one there, except for J.)

The people there were REALLY NICE! (: and I mean, GENUINELY NICE. can really feel that they are sincerely…NICE! (: i mean, true nice-ness VS fake nice-ness; sure can tell one. HAHA… so i felt really good and welcomed being there. And I realised, it was the Uni Service. which is pretty good cos it’s kinda like, people understand what you are going through in school as well? Uni life is tough…and being able to be in the house of God with Uni students is like…really encouraging.

and the sermon was awesome! like, it really spoke to me! i guess you could say, God knows our every fear and difficulty. that prolly explained the “urge” and “drive” i was experiencing that made me really wanna go ystd. (:

just something I would like to share which I thought really hit right at home.

1 Timothy 6:11
“Flee from all this”
FLEE is usually associated with cowardice and fear, but in this context, “flee” should be like, fleeing as a mean to Victory and the only wise thing to do as there is no better way.

• Flee from godless teachings (v3-5)
• Flee from the love of money (v9-10)
• Flee from evil desires (2 Timothy 2:22)
• Flee from sexual immorality (1 Corinthians 6:18)(Genesis 39:10-12)
• Flee from Idolatry (1 Corinthians 10:14)

What caved in was “Flee from Idolatry”. Idols, not so much in its literal sense like celebrities and all but could also be like a crush/gf/bf/spouse…it’s someone or something that you fixate upon and your whole world and all the decisions you make seem to be revolving around them. During this period, it kinda felt like that. what happened between me and S is like consuming me from the inside. I can say like 90% of the things i do everyday kinda had him in mind. And now I know, it shouldn’t be this way. (: i must flee from idolatry. “In life, we also tend to give in a little, a little and a little. Then we give a little more, a little more, a little more. By the time we realise, we are stuck, or hooked. And although it’s going to be really difficult; we need to flee.”

The next statement is something I wouldn’t have thought about before but hearing it, really makes a whole lot of sense.

“If you are moving away from something, naturally, you are moving towards something else.” so true right?? (:

Thus, “fleeing” may not necessary be the work of a coward. It is towards greater things (:

The next thing was about “FIGHT”. we must keep in mind and know what we want to fight for. and PERSEVERE on.
FIGHT with PERSEVERANCE (James 1:2-4)

• Tough times will not last; and going through it will only mature you.

Fight on with the purpose and God in mind. Because there is a reason why God put us through these challenges.

He wants us to learn how to fight! ((:

another interesting thing that I’ve learnt was that, “Fight” in Greek literally meant “Agony”. Fighting is a very agonizing thing to be doing. It’s never gonna be easy, but we MUST “piah” to the very end and never give up. (: yup. “fight the good fight”.

to end this post, i just wanna say thank you to J who kept fighting on, persevering in her many texts and kept inviting me to the service. (: and the ability God has given me to persuade my mum to let me go, i know God has soften her heart at that point which led her to make such a sound decision. (: and most of all, I’m really thankful to God who has not forsaken me after all this while.

I was a lost sheep, but God has never forgotten about me. (: His love is the greatest of all. He never fails.

okayyys (: long post. hope you guys learnt some things too! <3

toodles~!

xoxo.

you’re insane.

Truthfully, I’ve never met a more disturbed person than you. The things you do these days make me go “Seriously?”, and it wasn’t in the nicest tone nor was it just once each time, trust me.

Sorry mister, the more shit and fcuked up stuff you do, the more it’s annoying me (like, duh~). Good thing though, it makes this heartache a little more sufferable at each turn of your insanity and stupidity.

You said you hope we could still be really good friends? I didn’t know the definition of “Really Good Friends” meant a truckload of lies, betrayals and…oh, i don’t know…MORE LIES?! your acts should come to a close already, like seriously. I present to you a Golden Horse Award lah uh. (curtain calls please)

And today, you’ve got the cheek to text me to get me to send you your resume? I literally LOL-ed. Hello…….your resume wasn’t even done by yourself! Remember who was the one who actually helped you do it? yes, yours truly. of course you remember, that was why you asked me for it. gahh! & I foolishly sent it to you. ohgosh. what was I thinking?!

After sending then I thought of an awesome comeback (like thanks Brain, you could have worked a little faster than Heart. not blaming you though. this is just a phase that shit like this happens). Should have said I’ve deleted it and you could jolly well go ask your minah to help you write one out. Pathetic or what. Yes, I’m sounding like a jealous bitch, but can you blame me? After what you’ve done? tsk. whatever. As quoted from OML, she said “You’re a bigger person than this!” yea baby! sometimes I think I seem too nice that you can, at all times and anytime, take advantage of. gahh! Loser much. and since i’m so nice, i wish you the best in your life. (no, seriously… i do wish you the best. not trying to be sarcastic at all.)

It’s alright. I’m better off without you anyways. No more of your mind games, playing me and dragging me around like a rag doll.

 

Ohwells. On a happier note, 7 days to Batam with hubby! (: Hopefully the Sun is awesome there. Really in need of a tan! both of us! TURI BEACH! <3

RAINBOW CUPCAKES BAKING SESSION TOMORROW with ECLY, OML and LA! <3 so excited! (((:

and kuay chap dinner date with F and ZH! (((: hope F brings Million along too! miss that lil guy!

 

alrights, time to hit the sack.

toodles~!

 

 

 

-a little bit stronger each day-